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the last couple of weeks I have fallen in love again. to the man I vowed to spend the rest of my life with. Just beginning of this month it started out hard.
- Doubts.
- Lust
- confusion
- fear
- depression
For the first time in my marriage I have felt how much we can cause pain to one another. I had experienced confusion of my role as a wife and the role of my husband. I didn’t know how important it was for David to honor my word. I didn’t know how easy it was for me to forgive him. I didn’t understand why Christ loved us so much reguardless of how evil we are by nature. How we struggle with one person to forgive, but Christ had the whole world on his chest and took it to the cross. Yet they sought to murder him he also had the choice to forgive them.
I still have a grudge with my father. I wish and pray for the bitterness to go away in his heart. It’s hard to pray for my father and to forgive him, but it was out of love that Christ was willing to obey what he was sent to do. I don’t know if I love my father in a way that I care for his salvation. I would have to say 80% he wasn’t involve in my life towards the time I was 8 years old and up. I know he cared. He feeds the family. He drives me to school, church, work, and supermarkets. He wants good for me, but shows it through compromising his friend’s kids. I now have started a scrapbook and I’m working on my disneyland pictures and I realized.. Man, my father missed out of knowing me through my teenage years. I bet my sisters didn’t even know this side of me. I don’ t know if they do. Sure, David is a keeper but they didn’t think that at first. I married him after 3months. They don’t know how secure I was. They didn’t understand that I have been praying for him for two years. -But it has been almost two years and a half… we have gone through so much together..
I been hoping and praying for David. I am so happy that he has stand up and became the leader of the house. I am bless that he has been reading his bible. I am glad that attending Sandals Church has given him a vision in ministry. I am bless to see that I can visualize him in God’s plans with mine.
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I burrow some Vietnamese bible cd tracks from my grandmother bout a year ago. I told her I would mail her back the rest of the c.ds when I get around to burn a copy. Well, that’s back when she was living in Orange County and now she’s in Vietnam. I never understood back in a vietnamese presbyterian church. I hated listening to the Gospel at church because it was tiring. Presbyterian churches are boring! No I didn’t hate the Gospel in church -I take that back. I knew if it was spoken in English it would be better to understand. But for some reason I understand listening to the vietnamese tracks while reading through the english or vietnamese bible. There comes a time when I have to except I am vietnamese and that’s my blood. I rather be an American girl and erase my vietnamese pride. Perharps I should respect those who are martyh in vietname who really loves the Lord. These days when you drive down on Bolsa in Orange county you see men and women walking out of coffee shops. SMoking, gambling, Karoke, and probably has intentions of cheating on their spouse. You see the coffee shops in Orange county is like a bar. More like a coffee bar Asian teenagers after high school break into partys and going clubbing, having babies at a year age. What troubles me is to see at seventeen year old girl working at a coffee shop wearing a tube top and trying to still fit in with a group, while she has a baby at home. My family doesn’t really how wealthy they are. Always talk of winning the lottery and buying a million dollar house. They just refinciance the house and added new lawn to the front yard. Paint the house fix the windows and backyard. They now can afford satelite vietnames channel. My mom has a car, my older sisters have their own car and linda shares a car with my dad. Yet my mother is miserable. I pray for their souls because their needy. Not only for family but salvation. They’re not hungry for truth beecause they rather fill their emptiness with food, fights, grand kids, gambling, chinese/korean series in dubbed, and the vietnamese channel on satellite.
After High School I decided to go to church on my own and attended church with Hien in L.A. I meet the Jourdens. I fell in love with Pamela. SHe was my role model. They left New Mexico and settled in SOuth Central L.A. because they knew there was going to be a revival there. Last year they were called to go to North Carolina and then Ireland. I was excited to find out they’re coming out this february and probably returning for good!
I’m attending Sandals church right now In the CBU campus I love it! I love how the church is all about being real. Admitting we are all hyprocrites. I like how the pastor doesn’t have to be a celebrity. He hangs around this tent they call “tent Ten” and have a ten minute conversation with him after the service.
I am also selling avon. I think I have been getting a lot of customers lately. whoa…
I was meant to be a doh(erty)girl 
